“De Voedingsdeskundige”

Deze animatie maakt deel uit van de TED-Ed-serie, "Daar is een gedicht voor", met geanimeerde interpretaties van zowel oude als nieuwe gedichten die taal geven aan enkele van de grootste gevoelens van het leven.

"Hi, I'm Andrea Gibson and this is my poem "The Nutritionist."

The nutritionist said I should eat root vegetables
Said if I could get down 13 turnips a day I would be grounded, rooted.
Said my head would not keep flying away to where the darkness lives.

The psychic told me my heart carries too much weight
Said for 20 dollars she’d tell me what to do
I handed her the twenty,
she said “stop worrying darling, you will find a good man soon.”

The first psychotherapist said I should spend 3 hours a day sitting in a dark closet with my eyes closed and my ears plugged.
I tried it once but couldn’t stop thinking about how gay it was to be sitting in the closet.

The yogi told me to stretch everything but truth,
said focus on the outbreaths,
said everyone finds happiness if they can care more about what they can give than what they get.

The pharmacist said klonopin, lamictil, lithium, Xanax.

The doctor said an antipsychotic might help me forget what the trauma said

The trauma said don’t write this poem.
Nobody wants to hear you cry about the grief inside your bones

But my bones said “Tyler Clementi dove into the Hudson River convinced he was entirely alone.”

My bones said “write the poem.”

To the lamplight.
Considering the river bed.

To the chandelier of your fate hanging by a thread.

To everyday you could not get out of bed.

To the bulls eye of your wrist

To anyone who has ever wanted to die.

I have been told, sometimes, the most healing thing we can do-
Is remind ourselves over and over and over
Other people feel this too

The tomorrow that has come and gone
And it has not gotten better

When you are half finished writing that letter to your mother that says “I swear to God I tried”

But when I thought I hit bottom, it started hitting back
There is no bruise like the bruise loneliness kicks into your spine

So let me tell you I know there are days it looks like the whole world is dancing in the streets when you break down like the doors of their looted buildings

You are not alone and wondering who will be convicted of the crime of insisting you keep loading your grief into the chamber of your shame

You are not weak just because your heart feels so heavy I have never met a heavy heart that wasn’t a phone booth with a red cape inside

Some people will never understand the kind of superpower it takes for some people to just walk outside

Some days I know my smile looks like the gutter of a falling house
But my hands are always holding tight to the ripchord of believing

A life can be rich like the soil
Make food of decay
Turn wound into highway
Pick me up in a truck with that bumper sticker that says “it is no measure of good health to be well adjusted to a sick society”

I have never trusted anyone with the pulled back bow of my spine the way I trust the ones who come undone at the throat
Screaming for their pulse to find the fight to pound

Four nights before Tyler Clementi jumped from the George Washington bridge I was sitting in a hotel room in my own town
Calculating exactly what I had to swallow to keep a bottle of sleeping pills down

What I know about living is the pain is never just ours
Every time I hurt I know the wound is an echo
So I keep a listening for the moment when the grief becomes a window

When I can see what I couldn’t see before, through the glass of my most battered dream,
I watched a dandelion lose its mind in the wind and when it did, it scattered a thousand seeds.

So the next time I tell you how easily I come out of my skin,
don’t try to put me back in
just say here we are together at the window aching for it to all get better
but knowing there is a chance our hearts may have only just skinned their knees
knowing there is a chance the worst day might still be coming
let me say right now for the record,
I’m still gonna be here asking this world to dance,
even if it keeps stepping on my holy feet you-
you stay here with me, okay?

You stay here with me.

Raising your bite against the bitter dark
Your bright longing
Your brilliant fists of loss
Friend if the only thing we have to gain in staying is each other,
my god that’s plenty
my god that’s enough
my god that is so so much for the light
to give each of us at each other’s backs
whispering over and over and over
“Live”
“Live”
“Live”

 

Bron: TED.com